218 lbs.
4 lbs. lost/26 lbs. lost total
$5/lb. pledged
$130 raised so far
I need to confess, I quit boot camp before it was over.
It was the food plan that did me in. It was so restrictive. Last weekend, I went on a huge eating binge. And I mean binge. I didn't STOP eating. :(
Emotional binge eating has been an issue for me for several years now. That's the main reason I'm overweight now. If I am feeling stressed or upset, I can, and have on several occasions, eaten an entire package of cookies at one sitting. Then I feel awful about it later. And because I'm feeling awful... I eat.
I hadn't binged since April, when I started Lose for the Fuse. Then boot camp, and last weekend, happened. I haven't felt the depression and self loathing that comes with the binging since April, and it scared me.
So... I quit.
Being constantly on edge about what I was eating, fearing writing it in my food journal, fearing having it read by the instructor and the rest of the class do sprints because I "cheated"... it so wasn't worth it.
I've been doing better, getting back on track, this week. I did binge on kettle corn yesterday though. One day at a time, I guess.
On a positive note, despite last weekends binge, when I weighed myself on Monday, I was down 4 pounds. I've officially met my 25 pounds down goal!! Woo hoo!!
I'm starting to get comments by people that they've noticed I'm losing weight. And it feels good. I'm starting to notice, too... I can tell I have a waist again! And my face isn't as puffy as it was. I'll always have chipmunk cheeks, but at least now they don't look quite so full of nuts. :)
Tonight and tomorrow, I'm walking in Relay for Life. That will be a lot of good exercise. Plus, it makes me feel good to know I'm doing it in memory of an in honor of several people who mean a lot to me.
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Hey Paula, keep up the great work. One of the biggest things that has helped me be successful in this thing is that I haven't cut out any foods from my diet. I still eat pizza, cookies, Reeses Cups, etc. but I'm very careful to limit how much. If this thing is going to work long term I figure I have to be realistic. That boot camp thing sounds like the exact wrong thing for my personality and maybe yours as well. Just keep making good choices and don't worry about being perfect.
GREAT WORK!!
Thanks, Dice. I realized that the boot camp thing was the wrong thing for my personality, too. It works great for some people, but it completely backfired for me. I am proud that I recognized that, and was able to get back on track. In the past, I would have just given up and started eating and forgetting about trying to lose weight.
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